Fever

Last night I couldn't sleep well, I was thinking of you the whole night, I kept tossing and turning, I listened to my ipod and still I can't get you out of my head. Not enough sleep gives me a tired body which on a rainy day like today brings me bad health and thus now I'm having a fever. Together with the fever brings sad feelings and depression symptoms. But I don't think I'm going that way again.

Few days ago I dreamt of you, it was so clear, it was definitely you. Is it because I really miss you that it is manifesting in my dreams? The whole day today it was you you you in my head and heart. Fever now, taken 2 panadol tablets and hope I can be well and happy again tomorrow. I'm actually starting to listen and sing to really sad songs at this stage, somehow trying to force myself to cry the pain out. But well it didn't work out.

I really dont know how things will turn out between us, but these dreams should mean something. I wonder if I dream of you, do you dream of me too? When I think of you, do you think of me too? In my life so far I dont think that happens, most of the time it is one way love, maybe I'm just hoping for too much. But those dreams I get, it's like God telling me to have more faith, I probably won't know what will happen between now and then, but faith says that it will happen.

Learning both piano and violin now, no I'm not insane, it's just a matter of time. I told myself that even when I'm 40years old o 60 years old I will still learn these 2 instruments, so why not now? And there we go, God has placed me here so that I'm able to do that things that I need to do. Thank you Lord.

This fever is making me emotional at this stage, I miss you and really hope to be able to see you soon.

"Cause every moment
we share together
is even better
than the moment before
if everyday was
as good as today was
then I can't wait till tomorrow comes"
- Westlife : Moments

A new beginning

"In all the work you are doing, work the best you can. Work as if you were doing it for the Lord, not for people"
- Colossians 3:23

Phew been a long long time since I wrote. My life has taken a new turn, after spending nearly 3 weeks already here in this new place, I realised that I did not end up here by chance, it seems that everything is working out so much faster here. I believe that this is what God has planned for me because I have not seen such great ease in my life. I'm given a good roommate from the same city, from the first day I've made many friends. And now I even have time to learn the piano and hopefully the violin soon.

"Jesus said, "Your Father knows the things you need before you ask him"
- Matthew 6:8

Once again there is no denying the role God has played in my life. I give thanks to him everyday. I realised that I'm slowly getting rid of my bad habits one by one. But there seems to be no change in plans about you, still inside of me, I'm just waiting for the day where God decides that it is time for us to meet, one year since we first met soon.