Lust

Lust is bad, so forget lust, everything that I feel now is just pure lust, loneliness breeds lust. It is all just lust, so just forget. The time has come for the need to suppress feelings, being too open on lovey things are a no no. Getting sick of the way things are already, time for a change.

How does it feel for someone that has never been rejected to be rejected for the first time...it must have hurt a lot. Useless questions like which part of me is bad will appear in our minds. Or is it better to be rejected often, so when we're accepted we can understand how hard it is to obtain that relationship and able to cherish it.



Love is too blind, so remember to forget.

So what...

So what if I really liked her...
So what if I did the things my heart wanted to do...
So what if I was honest with her...
So what if my feelings get rejected...
So what if she knows how terrible I feel...

Can I change things back to the way they were...?
Can I redo all the things I've done...?
Can I take back all the feelings that has been developed...?
Can I make her happier than the one she really likes...?

If the girl you like is so much happier being with someone else other than you...what can you do...other than being a gentleman and let her go.

是你的就是你的，不是你的就不是你的

Lick

Today I went by the pet shop and went in after dinner. There was this little cute pug that was shivering...if I could I wanted to hug him in my warmth. Then there was this mix breed, looks like a mixture of german sheperd and those wild dogs. Its name is Chocolate, written 6 months old though I dont think it looks much younger. I put my hand in from the top where there was an opening and Chocolate kept licking my fingers, It must be really lonely and need a home. Think it's abandoned or something cos he's for adoption. How I wish I could talk to dogs, just to talk to them, find out about their lives and stuffs.

Yeah when I write on my blog it pretty mean one thing, that is I'm not happy. This is how I feel now and probably after every rejection.



Yea yea my fault like always, shouldnt have fallen for her. Maybe I shouldnt fall for anyone, I make a much better friend than a boyfriend. Not being honest hurts people, but being honest makes you vulnerable of being taken advantage.

A dog is the only thing on this earth that loves you more than he loves himself.
- Josh Billings

Nectarine

I already did my part, and now I'm done, you have to do your part to get me interested again, and this time it will take much more to move my heart.

I know that I am weird and I believe I will find someone brave enough to hug me tight when I am gonna mutate into the monster in me.

爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现
戴爱玲 - 对的人

Love, what a dreadful bond
Davy Jones, Pirates of the Carribean

Cough

All right my heart is in turmoil...so time to pour the feelings out once again. And again, I don't know, feels like I'm pushing her too hard to accept my feelings. Probably a bad thing, but I never meant it in a bad way. Perhaps I shouldnt do anything, kinda gets tiring after a while. When two people gets so close and yet nothing happens...it is really tiring. Seriously I keep asking myself what am I trying so hard for? Isnt it easier to just let all these things go and perhaps not bother about them. Or maybe I just dont wanna live to regret it, pondering on the what ifs in the future.

Sigh what's wrong with being honest in love, however most of the time people prefer to accept lies than reality. This is not helping, I need to waste my time elsewhere.