Just finished watching Pursuit of Happiness, it got me thinking on a lot of matters. Like as mentioned in the movie, it was a phrase from Thomas Jefferson's declaration of independence which is Life, Liberty and the pursuit of happiness. And asking the same question as Will Smith's character, how did Thomas Jefferson figure out to put the word pursuit there.
Happiness is not something easily obtainable, it must be pursued, a lot of pain and suffering are involved, a lot of tears has to be shed and a lot of hurtful emotions that cannot be spoken out.
I've learnt a lot of things from this movie, things that I realised I've been doing that I shouldnt be doing. The qualities that I'm lacking, sometimes the stubbornness of myself. The movie was simple, it was just like any other movie, a man has a dream and at the end he got it. But this one the things that he went through to reach his dreams were so......indescribable.
There was this moment in the movie where Will Smith character's son told a story or a joke which was like this...
There was a man who was drowning, and a boat came, the man on the boat asked "Do you need help?" and the man said "God will save me". Then another boat came and tried to help him, but the drowning man said "God will save me", then he drowned and went to Heaven. Then the man asked God, "God, why didnt you save me?" and God said "I sent you two big boats you dummy!"
That was funny and well worth a thought.
This is a movie that can change people, a movie that can get people to thinking a lot. We would not understand how special being helped is if we have not gone through a lot of troubles. And how beautiful happiness is when we have not gone through a lot of suffering.
I think it is time that I let the you in me go. Even though I already knew from the start that it is not possible between us, but I still kept that feeling inside, protecting it like I was still hoping something good might come out of it. But now I have to let it go. To make room for something beautiful that may come into my life, to clean up the mess you left in my heart so that something new might come. After spending just a day with her, my heart tells me that I will not meet another person like her for a real long time, so it says, dont miss out on this one.
The crazy things I would do for the pursuit of happyness. I believe that I will appreciate it when I obtain it.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Monday, November 10, 2008
Constructive
Think it is best for me to occupy my time with more productive actions rather than degenerative thoughts. Gonna learn to play Yiruma's 27th May, tried just now and did pretty well, just need to write out the whole song first and try it on piano. A few stuffs I need to do here before I go back in New Year.
1.Learn to drive - finally, cos there were many reasons as to why I am not able to drive yet, but not important now.
2.Help my brother with the business cos I know more than him, so I can still help him.
3.Lose 10 kgs, yes 10kgs, cos I gained freaking 7kgs in 7 months.
4.Learn to play Yiruma's 27th May on piano
5.Finish reading Micahel Crichton's State of Fear novel
6.Finish reading The Law of Attraction in Action
7.Finish reading Bioscience Entrepreneurship in Asia
Seven things to do in less than 2 months, not impossible, 3-7 would be the hard part. Oh well I got time, better make good use of them and not think too much about degenerative and useless thoughts.
1.Learn to drive - finally, cos there were many reasons as to why I am not able to drive yet, but not important now.
2.Help my brother with the business cos I know more than him, so I can still help him.
3.Lose 10 kgs, yes 10kgs, cos I gained freaking 7kgs in 7 months.
4.Learn to play Yiruma's 27th May on piano
5.Finish reading Micahel Crichton's State of Fear novel
6.Finish reading The Law of Attraction in Action
7.Finish reading Bioscience Entrepreneurship in Asia
Seven things to do in less than 2 months, not impossible, 3-7 would be the hard part. Oh well I got time, better make good use of them and not think too much about degenerative and useless thoughts.
Friday, November 07, 2008
Cold Heart
Well back to my hometown, seems there are many changes here and there, but more like expansion for most. Seems like I might be busy this holiday.
I want to write something but not sure what to write, I'm probably in a confused state now, I mean my heart is. Maybe I should just stop doing all these stuffs and resign to being alone for the rest of my life, that would actually make my life easier. Why do I go and worry about someone that is careless with my heart...makes no sense, like the saying, love is blind, indeed it is.
Be cold I tell myself, none of them likes me for who I am, most probably for what I have. This is bad, I'm starting to not trust any girl. Maybe I should write what I look for in a girl.
1. Looks - well looks are of course important, if some guy say looks arent important then he is lying, but beauty depends on individual, every guy looks at different things. For me as long as she is pleasing, she passes the looks test, she does not have to be beautiful or anything, as long as she's pleasing to the eye.
2. Character - I like a girl that is fun to be with. Someone who is a little naughty and can make me laugh when I am sad or angry. Not the boring types, cos they are...boring. I like one that is creative, you know she knows how to surprise me with stuffs, doesnt have to be expensive gifts, hand made ones are worth more to me. It all depends on her heart I guess. And definitely not the type that has a lot of guy friends and gives out mixed signals and in the end makes the guy feel he got played around. These type are what I will grow to hate most.
3. Attitude - I prefer a girl with a positive attitude to life, someone who doesnt whine a lot. I mean she can whine of course, but not overdo it.
4. To me - of course in a relationship the other party must be good to me cos I know I will be good to her. There will be times where we might quarrel but as long as both of us can understand and prefer to not be quarrelsome, it should be good.
And again I have to stress that if a girl does not like a guy, please don't give strong signals of intention of liking, that would hurt the guy a lot. Girls that plays are trash. Just because they are pretty or beautiful does not give them the right to play guys around. Pathetic creatures.
Oh noes there is much hate in my post, better calm down. I'd better be cold to all girls, if they ever give me some hints of liking me, that is rubbish, no need to think too much about it. Oh God help me, I'm starting to lose trust in people again.
When love goes wrong, nothing goes right
- Love Guru
Even though Love Guru was a kinda lame movie, but well certain parts does make sense.
Seems like I've again reached that stage where I start to question myself just what I am doing wrong in life. I've done things differently this time, but why does the end seems still to be the same. At the end you start to think about the beginning...what an irony. Guess after all these I learn about who she is, there is no difference between her and the 7 years her. The main difference was that the 7 years one tried hard to not break my heart, while this her seems to try hard to break my heart. Aha those memories, might not be easy to erase, but well hopefully someone will come and help me with it in the future. And hopefully by that time, my heart is not closed yet.
I want to write something but not sure what to write, I'm probably in a confused state now, I mean my heart is. Maybe I should just stop doing all these stuffs and resign to being alone for the rest of my life, that would actually make my life easier. Why do I go and worry about someone that is careless with my heart...makes no sense, like the saying, love is blind, indeed it is.
Be cold I tell myself, none of them likes me for who I am, most probably for what I have. This is bad, I'm starting to not trust any girl. Maybe I should write what I look for in a girl.
1. Looks - well looks are of course important, if some guy say looks arent important then he is lying, but beauty depends on individual, every guy looks at different things. For me as long as she is pleasing, she passes the looks test, she does not have to be beautiful or anything, as long as she's pleasing to the eye.
2. Character - I like a girl that is fun to be with. Someone who is a little naughty and can make me laugh when I am sad or angry. Not the boring types, cos they are...boring. I like one that is creative, you know she knows how to surprise me with stuffs, doesnt have to be expensive gifts, hand made ones are worth more to me. It all depends on her heart I guess. And definitely not the type that has a lot of guy friends and gives out mixed signals and in the end makes the guy feel he got played around. These type are what I will grow to hate most.
3. Attitude - I prefer a girl with a positive attitude to life, someone who doesnt whine a lot. I mean she can whine of course, but not overdo it.
4. To me - of course in a relationship the other party must be good to me cos I know I will be good to her. There will be times where we might quarrel but as long as both of us can understand and prefer to not be quarrelsome, it should be good.
And again I have to stress that if a girl does not like a guy, please don't give strong signals of intention of liking, that would hurt the guy a lot. Girls that plays are trash. Just because they are pretty or beautiful does not give them the right to play guys around. Pathetic creatures.
Oh noes there is much hate in my post, better calm down. I'd better be cold to all girls, if they ever give me some hints of liking me, that is rubbish, no need to think too much about it. Oh God help me, I'm starting to lose trust in people again.
When love goes wrong, nothing goes right
- Love Guru
Even though Love Guru was a kinda lame movie, but well certain parts does make sense.
Seems like I've again reached that stage where I start to question myself just what I am doing wrong in life. I've done things differently this time, but why does the end seems still to be the same. At the end you start to think about the beginning...what an irony. Guess after all these I learn about who she is, there is no difference between her and the 7 years her. The main difference was that the 7 years one tried hard to not break my heart, while this her seems to try hard to break my heart. Aha those memories, might not be easy to erase, but well hopefully someone will come and help me with it in the future. And hopefully by that time, my heart is not closed yet.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
Parting
Yesterday I went to watch "10 promises to my dog", it was a really nice movie. There were moments where I was laughing cos the dog was so cute and sometimes funny. And there were times where I kept tearing non stop cos it was really sad, I could feel my warm tears streaming down my cheeks, but in the end it was a great movie. Parting is always a hard part of life, but it is part of life.
For some people, they could not grasp and understand the feeling of parting, the feeling of something leaving you. The one thing that you took for granted just suddenly disappears from your life and you keep crying over it, that is parting. Perhaps age is a factor in some cases, the meaning of grow up doesnt apply physically, but more emotionally. When we grow up, we learn and experience more things, some happy, some sad, and that makes who we are.
10 Promises to my Dog
1. Please be patient with me
2. Trust me, I will always be by your side
3. Play with me a lot
4. Don't forget I have feelings too
5. Don't fight with me
6. When I disobey, I have my reasons
7. You have your friends, but I only have you as my friend
8. When I am old, please continue to be my friend
9. I only live about 10 years, so please cherish our every moment together
10.I will not forget the time we spend together, so when it is time for me to go, please be by my side.
Given the place that I am in, the things that I am doing, I'm starting to really feel that I'm getting old...
For some people, they could not grasp and understand the feeling of parting, the feeling of something leaving you. The one thing that you took for granted just suddenly disappears from your life and you keep crying over it, that is parting. Perhaps age is a factor in some cases, the meaning of grow up doesnt apply physically, but more emotionally. When we grow up, we learn and experience more things, some happy, some sad, and that makes who we are.
10 Promises to my Dog
1. Please be patient with me
2. Trust me, I will always be by your side
3. Play with me a lot
4. Don't forget I have feelings too
5. Don't fight with me
6. When I disobey, I have my reasons
7. You have your friends, but I only have you as my friend
8. When I am old, please continue to be my friend
9. I only live about 10 years, so please cherish our every moment together
10.I will not forget the time we spend together, so when it is time for me to go, please be by my side.
Given the place that I am in, the things that I am doing, I'm starting to really feel that I'm getting old...
Monday, November 03, 2008
Date
It was a good one, but I really have no idea where it is leading me. It's like walking a path towards an unknown place. The heart is happy and sad at the same time. It is that confusing feeling that I don't like. Feels as if I stepped on a landmine but I can't blame anyone but myself for doing it. Without saying anything, I knew, that was most probably the first and last time. I think it's normal for people to take me for granted with the way I act, I have already understood that, but can't help wishing they would understand from my point of view.
Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. There are three things that last, faith, hope and love, and love is the greatest of these.
- A walk to remember
That was from the movie A Walk to Remember, I didnt quite expect the movie to turn out like that, it was really nice. While that phrase about love was being read in the movie, I remember it is from the Bible, cos I've read that part before, the one in the Bible is much longer.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does no boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
"And now these three remains : faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."
- 1 Corinthians 13:13
I think at the age that I am in, I am starting to understand the way things work, why people say that happiness is the hardest to achieve.
"Happiness depends upon ourselves"
- Aristotle
It wasnt easy even for a guy like me to act the way I did on that day, but I must admit she did help a lot. I became much more natural after some time and we could act the way we did. Let's just say perhaps we've broken another barrier. Even though I keep saying she looks like the girl I liked for seven years, but in reality, I like her because she is the way she is, not because she looks like someone else. I have asked myself that question many many times and the answer seems to appear the same.
"Take a risk. Dare to move. Love is a leap of faith"
"Love is like the wind, I can't see it, but I can feel it"
- A Walk to Remember
The road is still long, there are still way too many possibilities in our lives. Whatever that happened, we have to learn from it and understand more about this existence we're in and grow from one lesson to the next.
When we grow up, the more of nothing we will get
When we grow up, the more things we are not able to do
When we grow up, the more questions were are not able to answer
When we grow up, the more time there will be where noone takes care of us
When we grow up, the more we love without reason
After we grow up, there are a lot of nothingness obtained
But the one that makes people grow up are all these nothingness.
- Bull Fighting Episode 12
Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. There are three things that last, faith, hope and love, and love is the greatest of these.
- A walk to remember
That was from the movie A Walk to Remember, I didnt quite expect the movie to turn out like that, it was really nice. While that phrase about love was being read in the movie, I remember it is from the Bible, cos I've read that part before, the one in the Bible is much longer.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does no boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
"And now these three remains : faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."
- 1 Corinthians 13:13
I think at the age that I am in, I am starting to understand the way things work, why people say that happiness is the hardest to achieve.
"Happiness depends upon ourselves"
- Aristotle
It wasnt easy even for a guy like me to act the way I did on that day, but I must admit she did help a lot. I became much more natural after some time and we could act the way we did. Let's just say perhaps we've broken another barrier. Even though I keep saying she looks like the girl I liked for seven years, but in reality, I like her because she is the way she is, not because she looks like someone else. I have asked myself that question many many times and the answer seems to appear the same.
"Take a risk. Dare to move. Love is a leap of faith"
"Love is like the wind, I can't see it, but I can feel it"
- A Walk to Remember
The road is still long, there are still way too many possibilities in our lives. Whatever that happened, we have to learn from it and understand more about this existence we're in and grow from one lesson to the next.
When we grow up, the more of nothing we will get
When we grow up, the more things we are not able to do
When we grow up, the more questions were are not able to answer
When we grow up, the more time there will be where noone takes care of us
When we grow up, the more we love without reason
After we grow up, there are a lot of nothingness obtained
But the one that makes people grow up are all these nothingness.
- Bull Fighting Episode 12
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