Urr perhaps I was wrong to open pandora's box, and I had to dream of you in the afternoon, such a weird dream. A dream that makes no sense at all, the surroundings were always changing, just weird, and you appeared out of nowhere.
Oh my, when did the you in this blog changed to you. Goodness me what have I done. Feels more like infatuation than anything else, looks like another period of one sided feelings like always. Sigh this feeling should have faded a long time ago.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Even after so long
It's just so weird to still have these feelings after so many long years, is it infatuation or is it the love I've been looking for all these while. When I'm sad I start to think of you again, when I'm in need of someone I think of you, when I feel that the whole world dislike me, I think of you. It's like I'm on a hill at night looking at the stars in the sky, wishing in my heart for the one day where you would find me too in your wish. When I put my hands up it feels like the stars are within reach but no matter how I grasp I can never grasp the stars.
I just realised today that it's been more than 10 years from the first time I gave you my heart, not sure why in my head it's always 7 years, seems like time froze then after that fateful dream and thawed after the dream a few weeks back.
Again I can only look at the stars, wishing that you are wishing for me too.
I just realised today that it's been more than 10 years from the first time I gave you my heart, not sure why in my head it's always 7 years, seems like time froze then after that fateful dream and thawed after the dream a few weeks back.
Again I can only look at the stars, wishing that you are wishing for me too.
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
True Love
Does it exist or does it not?
Two days ago I had a really nice dream, hard to write in words the feeling I had after that dream, although it will probably take more than a miracle to make it come true, but nonetheless I was really happy just to dream of it.
Maybe it was good I stopped the feelings before it got too deep, I could feel that the like was turning into love. But well maybe it was good I got rejected, so it was stopped there. I think the wrong part for me was that I had to like her way before I got to know her, so whatever that was bad of her was covered, cos love is just so blind. Best to just deny all.
It will take some time to get used to living with these memories, I hope that special someone would come soon and replace my memories with the new ones with her. But well, have to be patient, not sure when she will come, or even if she will come or not. I can only live with hope. Maybe this is the feeling of loving someone that I havent even met or havent got to know.
Two days ago I had a really nice dream, hard to write in words the feeling I had after that dream, although it will probably take more than a miracle to make it come true, but nonetheless I was really happy just to dream of it.
Maybe it was good I stopped the feelings before it got too deep, I could feel that the like was turning into love. But well maybe it was good I got rejected, so it was stopped there. I think the wrong part for me was that I had to like her way before I got to know her, so whatever that was bad of her was covered, cos love is just so blind. Best to just deny all.
It will take some time to get used to living with these memories, I hope that special someone would come soon and replace my memories with the new ones with her. But well, have to be patient, not sure when she will come, or even if she will come or not. I can only live with hope. Maybe this is the feeling of loving someone that I havent even met or havent got to know.
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