Walk on

Have you had a dream so real that you are really there, you can touch and feel and smell. It happened two days ago, the dream was so so very real, I could touch her, I could feel her lips, I could feel our heads snuggling one each other. Who is she? I was sure it was you, but the more I think about it, the more I lose your face in her. Her face becomes erased, just a blot of darkness waiting for me to decide who she looks like. Ah well but that probably won't matter, whatever that will happen will happen, I will just pray to God so that I may make the wise and correct decision when the time comes.

Mozart's Oboe concerto is sooooo beautiful. Not to mention the first part where the Oboe joins in and has to hold a note for around 9 seconds. Beautiful and happy tune, a must to listen and appreciate for classical lovers.

"Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight"
- Sarah Mclachlan - In the arms of the angel

That dream was the first night where I did not take a sleeping pill. It has been two nights where I did not take a sleeping pill. I only have ten pills left for 10 nights, and now I can sleep without taking one. Although on the first night it was still a lot of waking up. But it really is a miracle, I did pray for it, prayed to be able to sleep without the need for sleeping pills and God answered me. That night for some reason I felt like I could sleep without the pill, it was as if something in my heart told me to try. I give thanks to God for the miracles that he has done in my life. He has made me realise something important through someone I met during my friend's wedding. It had put my heart in peace. Feels like I gained the strength to finally get on with my life, to finally start walking again. I've stopped, turned back and looked for too long, now it's time to continue and walk on.