Date

It was a good one, but I really have no idea where it is leading me. It's like walking a path towards an unknown place. The heart is happy and sad at the same time. It is that confusing feeling that I don't like. Feels as if I stepped on a landmine but I can't blame anyone but myself for doing it. Without saying anything, I knew, that was most probably the first and last time. I think it's normal for people to take me for granted with the way I act, I have already understood that, but can't help wishing they would understand from my point of view.

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. There are three things that last, faith, hope and love, and love is the greatest of these.
- A walk to remember

That was from the movie A Walk to Remember, I didnt quite expect the movie to turn out like that, it was really nice. While that phrase about love was being read in the movie, I remember it is from the Bible, cos I've read that part before, the one in the Bible is much longer.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does no boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

"And now these three remains : faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."
- 1 Corinthians 13:13

I think at the age that I am in, I am starting to understand the way things work, why people say that happiness is the hardest to achieve.

"Happiness depends upon ourselves"
- Aristotle

It wasnt easy even for a guy like me to act the way I did on that day, but I must admit she did help a lot. I became much more natural after some time and we could act the way we did. Let's just say perhaps we've broken another barrier. Even though I keep saying she looks like the girl I liked for seven years, but in reality, I like her because she is the way she is, not because she looks like someone else. I have asked myself that question many many times and the answer seems to appear the same.

"Take a risk. Dare to move. Love is a leap of faith"
"Love is like the wind, I can't see it, but I can feel it"
- A Walk to Remember

The road is still long, there are still way too many possibilities in our lives. Whatever that happened, we have to learn from it and understand more about this existence we're in and grow from one lesson to the next.

When we grow up, the more of nothing we will get
When we grow up, the more things we are not able to do
When we grow up, the more questions were are not able to answer
When we grow up, the more time there will be where noone takes care of us
When we grow up, the more we love without reason
After we grow up, there are a lot of nothingness obtained
But the one that makes people grow up are all these nothingness.
- Bull Fighting Episode 12