Timing

It has been hurting for two days but today in church it was soothed. I went to church alone today, my parents and brother was kinda lazy to go, but well it's not that bad. I went not because I was not lazy, but because I felt that I needed to go. Strangely normally on a cold day like this I would be the laziest and hibernate, but today it was different, I wasn't the one hibernating. For some reason even though the state is probably the same, but it seems that outside forces are starting to come in and change things for the better.

Was it just not fated or was it just bad timing or a little of both? Neither of which really exist though. I wasn't listening, I wasn't dumb enough, I was being told yet I did not hear it in. Too many times we use our logical thoughts too much to no avail, yet when we listen carefully we are being told a lot. I still believe in that dream, but sometimes it just gets harder to have the faith to believe. When things are not looking good, I tend to lose faith and become gloomy. Last time I would dwell in it for some time, but seems now I move on from those feelings faster and think about the better stuffs to be happy about. But I still can't help it if I think about you day after day, it is an unconditional love from me to you.

"It's not what you do, but how much love you put into it that matters"
- Mother Theresa