Remember to Forget

When I saw you yesterday after like 8 months, my heart says this is my wife, but reality is totally different, I'm finding it hard to believe that follow your heart phrase, makes me so foolish. I feel played by you, I feel that I'm being too nice and I feel that I'm ready to waste another 7 years waiting for something that might never even happen. I can feel you laughing over there saying things like this guy is so easy to control. Like always I find myself trapped in such meaningless thoughts in my mind. You probably don't even care about how I feel anyway, I am in the end just another one of those guys to you. So are you my wife, I can hear a You Wish!

So remember to forget, for you are just another shadow in the crowd, for you are just a coincidental meeting, there are no meaning to it, I dont have to look for meanings in everything I want to believe in, cos most of the time there are not there. People cannot decide who they fall in love with, but they can decide when to give it up or not. Maybe I still love you a lot, but I will not touch this memory anymore. And no I shall not have dreams of you anymore, everytime I want to let go of you I dream of you, why am I the only one getting it? It should be a mutual thing isnt it? You should get it too if we're meant to be. So I guess it still ends up to be a one sided thing again... like always, nothing new there. I still have a lifetime I can use to forget you, I will remember to forget you.

This feeling is just making me sick, I love you so much and this unrequited love is making me sick, I need some rest. Remember to forget, I will remind myself.