I believe I believe I believe

"Lonely the path you have chosen
A restless road, no turning back
One day you will find your light again
Don't you know
Don't let go
Be strong"

Internet here has been terrible, down for a whole day on Monday, finally back up but on and off like always, can't wait to move end of next month. Been bad physically, having mouth ulcers in three areas, painful, makes eating and sleeping harder. So have to use the painful liquid that stings me when I put on my ulcers, but well they don't feel a thing after that, which is good. Short term pain for some good sleep.

"Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe I believe I believe in you"

Just when I thought I should forget about what I believe, forget about my dreams, this song kept coming out over and over again. Is it a hint for me? Unconsciously I keep playing this song over and over again myself. Follow your heart, follow your dreams, believe... how ironic. Though it did make me feel better in heart, more at peace.

"Follow your dreams
Be yourself be an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe I believe I believe in you"

I'm still in love with you but it seems that as time goes by it gets harder and harder to keep that feeling. So some time to refresh it isnt bad right? I hope the times spent with you from now on would be good and not as bad as last time. I've had problems in the past, hope they don't resurface anymore. I know you're busy, but sometimes it gives me the feeling that you don't want to meet me, makes me feel unwanted at times.

Even though it may be hard at times, but I believe in us, cos you're the one in my heart and my dreams, and so I will follow them.

"Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me too
And when I hold you close
I know that it's true"
IL Divo & Celine Dion - I believe in you